stay.

take notice, O Watcher of Souls..

of tiny breaths and

rhythmic heartbeats.

will you stay a little longer?

take notice, pay attention,

searching eyes find

this emptiness within

i am speechless

words void

reaching for air to breathe

love to drink.

deepest places crying

for warmth

and grace.

i am waiting for you

Lover..

all the day.

stay.

a journey.

take me on a journey of love. one where i am filled with laughter and fear cannot come. I want to see faces full of joy and anticipation.....i want to dance in a field of wildflowers in pouring rain. i want to sing aloud unashamed, to run hand in hand with Destiny and Grace. forever i want to be hidden in the light of your countenance and inside your wings of mercy. I want to forget all of my shame and remember the embrace of my Father's arms. I want to breathe in...and breath out again. i want to fly over the mountains of yesterday and forget the past, never to look back....oh the freedom! I will be like the summer night..... calm and safe, under starry skies. I will find true love and life. Heaven calls my name inside, take flight oh you heart of mine! Take me on a journey of love. <3

draw me...

i know i can trust

that this is your will

you always know how to draw me

you always know how to draw me.

oh this aching

just to be loved.

you always know how to call me.

pain screams for love to come..

i know you will come.

precious friend...

you always come.


in this emptiness

i find a place for you.

in this lonliness, i realize

i need you.

you always know how to draw me.

you always know how to draw me.


i wait for only you now.

there is no other love.

<3

<3

somebody tell me its real

i am loved

and he is near.

oh come and take these tears

turn them into laughter

and hope.

still my fears

and restore me now.

(i cant fake it anymore.)

i am just a little girl.

i believe.

someone once told me love was real
i believe, i believe.

i look into eternity
and i see, i see.

A man with tear-stains
and wounds in his side

this is true love
personified.

someone once told me beauty was found
i sing, i sing.

i look into the eyes of compassion-desire
and i breathe, i breathe.

Here i am found,
and Beauty finds me.

This is incarnate
purity.

someone once told me perfection had come
i weep, i weep.

i look to the cross where
he bleeds, he bleeds.

someone once told me love was real
i believe, i believe.

oh..the pain of waiting.

i have noticed that prophetic people often have more disappointment with God than others. Why is this? It is because the see more clearly how things should be or how God plans for them to be in the future. But in seeing far ahead, they must wait with faith sometimes for many years for the release of what they know is on God's heart. Therefore, they are more prone to be heartsick because of enduring failed expectations. As proverbs 13:12 says, "Hope deferred makes the heartsick."

Because their expectations are usually higher, they are more deeply disappointed. It's easier for those who are not so burdened with how things are supposed to be..."

-Mike Bickle, Growing in the Prophetic


[this is my life.]

thank you Mike,
for writing a book about my life.

there is beauty in the longing.

love of my life,
look deep in my eyes
[there you will find what you need]


lonliness wins.
It draws me to his embrace every time.


i am a prisoner of love
i am [captive] to this desire;
and i dont want release from these chains.
i dont want escape from your jealousy.

--

i am paralyzed by this desire
such a deep longing, inexpressible.
this is the reward of love
to feel the pain of burning fire
such a terrible ache, ineffable.

oh that you would come, dear Lover,
for you were sent to bind up the brokenhearted.
Here am i, fragile, unraveling.
let your tender hands of mercy come bring healing.

you are beauty incarnate,
you are the reason i live.
breathing, my heart is beating
for you, dear friend.

take me into the secret chambers of your heart.
and i will [sing].